just took 2 days off revision

Before I started university I knew that it was going to be hard, I just thought with the right amount of hours put in i'd be able to hack it and get a first. No no no, that's not how it works dears. One of my first examined modules is called human structure and function and that's so hardcore, I mean we did so much work from the get go. In about 2 hours the professor would go through 14 pages. 14 pages that have terminology that I've never even heard of. osteoblast, extra cellular matrix, cartilage... just kidding about the last one. I've spent maybe 8 hours on tissues, 2 hours of my timetabled lecture, I then slipped into the repeat lecture which was another 2 hours. 3 hours of revision on Saturday and then 4 hours this week. that's 10 hours! and I'm just halfway through the lecture notes. Now in order to create a work/life balance and a bit of pocket money I took a day of to bake some cakes and then sell them to a sweets shop. Don't get me wrong I did do some work, a chemistry problems sheet but nothing really quantifiable.

This is how things went downhill, on Wednesdays I have a workshop in the mornings, since it was just the second workshop we didn't do much aside from familiarise ourselves to our e-portfolios,
and I have a chemistry practical in the afternoons from 2-5. To enter the lab you must complete a health and safety test and pass it, now because I have 2 different sets of practicals I thought it was the same health and safety test, but before we go on to that. I forgot my lab coat and goggles at home, so I had to take the train back. It completely slipped my mind that I need to print a practical booklet and complete the test, this just dawned on me at 12.40 when I was getting ready to leave.

The health and safety test was really hard and I have no idea what the pass rate is, the questions were things like which of the following is not true for a pregnant woman and what colour fire extinguisher should you not use for organic fires. What?
In my first attempt I got 19/30 which was an obvious fail, I attempted it again and got 21/30 which was still a fail! on top of that it was now 13.10 bearing in mind a 40 minute journey to my uni. I don't know why I even went to be honest, I guess I was just trying my luck but my train got delayed. And I arrived at uni at 14.05
Schools and colleges may be lenient when you're a couple of minutes late but at university, well my university anyway there's absolutely no tolerance so I just ended up going to the library. I was actually upset so feeling sorry for my self I bought my self a Starbucks 'white' mocha... or so I ordered. only when I got home did I realise it was an ordinary mocha. I then got my self a carrot cake. what can I say? I comfort eat, sometimes I need those food opiates. I then spent to time chatting to my family and then went to sleep.
Thursday: my day off uni which I planned to revise and bake cakes, but since when do things go my way? I spent 9-12 with my aunt and grandma helping them re-do the living room, and then I had to cook for both families and on top of that I made 14 cakes, collected my sister from school and then delivered dinner to my aunt. Long story short I ended up not doing much revision.

It's going to be Monday again real soon, and I have a lecture and a half to finish! The moral of this blog is. never take a whole day of revision, it's hard to get back into that pattern once you've taken even a day of.

Some good has come out of this long and dreadful week, I've stopped writing motivational messages but last night some magic happened. This happened.
 It's not about how it starts... but how it ends. Things will go someway, but not always yours. How you deal with that is more important than how it ends. Life is a rollercoaster, it will take you up and down and spin you around, make you lose direction.
Wounds will heal, broken hearts will mend. Weather the storm and your scars will become inspirational stories!