It gets better

It's funny how life shows you that things aren't as bad as they seem.  A fortnight ago I had a huge emotional breakdown, for many reasons, and I hit a really big depressive low. Became anti-social and didn't really speak to anyone. I had an important deadline coming up aswell so no one needed to know what was going on. And I thought that the mental state that I was in was bad, like I thought my luck just cant get any worse.
 Sunday morning I woke up unable to get out of bed, with a severe case of the flu. I have no idea of most of the stuff that was going on in my head but I woke up with a high temp at 2.30 am and all I could think was 'I am in the movie white house down, if I stand up, cough, sneeze or make any sort of noise im going to get shot' So I ended up not getting a drink, holding sneezes in. It was really weird. In a state of physical illness, suddenly all the emotional stuff seemed next to nothing. After trying to fight it for a week, you know doing all those things the GP advises, stay hydrated, better diet etc I did all that and was on this medication that felt like it was stripping a layer of my oesophagus every time I drank it. Friday and i'm finally better. And you know, I feel like a new person. Staying in bed helped me set my priorities straight. And the point of this blog post is to tell you it gets better.

Things are going to get hard, and without trying to sound clichéd. It will eventually get better. I know what I described above isn't remotely even close to what people may encounter but I can honestly say that you WILL become a stronger person after the hardship. life may be a bitch to you, things may never work out for you. People like you don't get nice things? But my question to you is what are you going to do about it? are you going to sit back and take it, letting life take the wheel and then ending up wherever because you were too afraid to try. Or are you going to toughen up, take the hits and come back stronger, take the driving wheel and go to the destination you want? Be the person who you'd want your kids to be proud to say "that's my mom" or "that's my dad"

Time that we have is limited, so are energy and health. Who knows what tomorrow holds, what if tomorrow it's too late and you needed to have made that change today? The second, minute and hour that you lose you will never get back. As Eric Thomas says "you can burn down my house, I've got the blueprint I can build it again, you can take all my money but I will be able to replace it, but the time that I waste I will never ever be able to get back" That's paraphrased so don't take my word for it. Eric Thomas was homeless! and now he's an author. A lesson we should all be aware of is, a lot of people hurt. you know we're not the only ones. Take Adele for example, she was a no one for a while, in terms of in the music industry. her man broke up with her, she then took that heartbreak and made something productive from it and that album 21 was globally the biggest selling musical release for both 2011 and 2012. Now i'm not saying we should start writing songs about our feelings. But we have to use that extra energy - to be fair it really is extra energy, it's a lot of effort to be depressed and/or angry. And channel it into something that will turn out to be productive.


You know, the last time I felt like this was when I first decided to retake one of my college years. It was either that or do a course which I really didn't feel like, which was nursing (which is what my family wanted me to do when they saw my grades), but I didn't. And if I had chose that, the easier way out, if I didn't retake. I know that I wouldn't have found happiness in nursing that I found in biochemistry.

Just hold on, hold on tightly. you'll get there. Maybe not today or tomorrow but eventually. Do it for the people who care about you, and even more so, do it for you! You are special, forget the clichés for a minute, but seriously how many people have the exact same genetic make up as you?
Exactly.
I'm going to leave you guys with two words.

Be amazing!